it's a bless, not a burden

Lately I've been busy with taking care of my 88 years old grandma (eyang). At least this 1 week. Well, what I can say is this is hard. Really not easy. Your personality will be challenged by high level of patience. In my case, I was thinking I'm patient enough, then I found that... No, I'm not :(

Pretty sure that people at my age will think of self development, day by day. And with this situation, sometimes I feel I'm going nowhere. I have limited time to go out and explore stuff. But, I need to hang on. I need to stay.

Eyang at this age is really childish, impatient, temper. Of course we'll think that grown up people should be wise-man, even wiser than before. In fact, the physical condition also effect to mental condition. Her power or body resistance is never be the same anymore. I don't know what exactly is her feeling right now. Maybe she is feeling inconvenient with (sorry to say) urinal. She often said that she need to pee. But then it's only a little. The doctor said her kidney function is only 21% remaining. This could be one of the reason of her inconvenience feeling.  

I do sometimes feel sad knowing that (maybe) I'm too temper in facing her as well. I'll try to do better. Always.

I hope eyang knows that I love her.

Taking care of her is not a burden. It's a bless. It's an opportunity to learn a lot of things.